We are all
For the same thing
Waiting
Peacefully
Smelting Gold
Diamonds
Finding nothing
In the Fire
But
Ashes
The strongest of Stones
Wait
There is no return
To a normal life
Upside down
You still Breath
In & out
Smile
Massacred, waiting
And
Waiting
Liars and Thieves
Diversions of peace.
Sunday, October 28, 2007
The ghosts of time regrets
Scream
Their life's beretts
Given unto the voice
Filling the lungs
Soon to be dead
Heard only by those left behind
Time and time again
Human kind ness
Does not exist
Without hope
The authority of love
The rebellion of suck!
Not to be trusted
By those who don't believe
If you hear anything
The death screams
The headaches of time
In the decibel level
Of undeterminable pain
Remind yourself
Nothing else matters
When
Nothing else is left to gain.
Scream
Their life's beretts
Given unto the voice
Filling the lungs
Soon to be dead
Heard only by those left behind
Time and time again
Human kind ness
Does not exist
Without hope
The authority of love
The rebellion of suck!
Not to be trusted
By those who don't believe
If you hear anything
The death screams
The headaches of time
In the decibel level
Of undeterminable pain
Remind yourself
Nothing else matters
When
Nothing else is left to gain.
Thursday, August 23, 2007
re·solve [ri-zolv]
verb, -solved, -solv·ing, noun
1.to come to a definite or earnest decision about; determine (to do something): I have resolved that I shall live to the full.
2.
to separate into constituent or elementary parts; break up; cause or disintegrate (usually fol. by into).
3.
to reduce or convert by, or as by, breaking up or disintegration (usually fol. by to or into).
4.
to convert or transform by any process (often used reflexively).
5.
to reduce by mental analysis (often fol. by into).
6.
to settle, determine, or state formally in a vote or resolution, as of a deliberative assembly.
7.
to deal with (a question, a matter of uncertainty, etc.) conclusively; settle; solve: to resolve the question before the board.
8.
to clear away or dispel (doubts, fears, etc.); answer: to resolve any doubts we may have had.
9.
Chemistry. to separate (a racemic mixture) into optically active components.
10.
Music. to cause (a voice part or the harmony as a whole) to progress from a dissonance to a consonance.
11.
Optics. to separate and make visible the individual parts of (an image); distinguish between.
12.
Medicine/Medical. to cause (swellings, inflammation, etc.) to disappear without suppuration. –verb (used without object)
13.
to come to a determination; make up one's mind; determine (often fol. by on or upon): to resolve on a plan of action.
14.
to break up or disintegrate.
15.
to be reduced or changed by breaking up or otherwise (usually fol. by to or into).
16.
Music. to progress from a dissonance to a consonance. –noun
17.
a resolution or determination made, as to follow some course of action.
18.
firmness of purpose or intent; determination
Origin: 1325–75; ME resolven (v.) solvere to loosen; see
Related forms
re·solv·er, noun
—Synonyms 1. confirm. See 2. analyze, reduce. 17, 18. decision.
Dictionary.com Unabridged (v 1.1)Based on the Random House Unabridged Dictionary, © Random House, Inc. 2006.
Foo Fighters
"Resolve"
Something that I felt today, something that I heard
Swingin' from the chandeliers, hanging on your word
I remember watchin' you once upon a time
Dancing from across the room in another life
A little bit of resolve is what I need now
Pin me down, show me how
A little bit of resolve is what I need now
Pin me down, show me how
Lookin' back to find my way, never seemed so hard
Yesterday's been laid to rest, changing of the guard
I would never change a thing even if I could
All the songs we used to sing, everything was good
A little bit of resolve is what I need now
Pin me down, show me how
A little bit of resolve is what I need now
Pin me down, show me how
One more year that you're not here
It's gone and passed you by
What happened to you, what happened to you
One more tear that you won't hear
That's gone and passed you by
What happened to you, what happened to you
A little bit of resolve is what I need now
Pin me down, show me how
A little bit of resolve is what I need now
Pin me down, show me how
A little bit of resolve
One more year that you're not here
It's gone and passed you by
A little bit of resolve
One more year that you're not here
It's gone and passed you by
Resolve
by Kris
Father Father
I am yours today and every day
I give you my soul
my praise
my desire to live to the full
i will move on
each time
teh words
dry in my mouth
everytime
my eyes are knee deep in black water
i will move on
no exceptions
no free rides
all is sanctified
in Your name
I resolve
I resolve tonight
KEM
verb, -solved, -solv·ing, noun
1.to come to a definite or earnest decision about; determine (to do something): I have resolved that I shall live to the full.
2.
to separate into constituent or elementary parts; break up; cause or disintegrate (usually fol. by into).
3.
to reduce or convert by, or as by, breaking up or disintegration (usually fol. by to or into).
4.
to convert or transform by any process (often used reflexively).
5.
to reduce by mental analysis (often fol. by into).
6.
to settle, determine, or state formally in a vote or resolution, as of a deliberative assembly.
7.
to deal with (a question, a matter of uncertainty, etc.) conclusively; settle; solve: to resolve the question before the board.
8.
to clear away or dispel (doubts, fears, etc.); answer: to resolve any doubts we may have had.
9.
Chemistry. to separate (a racemic mixture) into optically active components.
10.
Music. to cause (a voice part or the harmony as a whole) to progress from a dissonance to a consonance.
11.
Optics. to separate and make visible the individual parts of (an image); distinguish between.
12.
Medicine/Medical. to cause (swellings, inflammation, etc.) to disappear without suppuration. –verb (used without object)
13.
to come to a determination; make up one's mind; determine (often fol. by on or upon): to resolve on a plan of action.
14.
to break up or disintegrate.
15.
to be reduced or changed by breaking up or otherwise (usually fol. by to or into).
16.
Music. to progress from a dissonance to a consonance. –noun
17.
a resolution or determination made, as to follow some course of action.
18.
firmness of purpose or intent; determination
Origin: 1325–75; ME resolven (v.) solvere to loosen; see
Related forms
re·solv·er, noun
—Synonyms 1. confirm. See 2. analyze, reduce. 17, 18. decision.
Dictionary.com Unabridged (v 1.1)Based on the Random House Unabridged Dictionary, © Random House, Inc. 2006.
Foo Fighters
"Resolve"
Something that I felt today, something that I heard
Swingin' from the chandeliers, hanging on your word
I remember watchin' you once upon a time
Dancing from across the room in another life
A little bit of resolve is what I need now
Pin me down, show me how
A little bit of resolve is what I need now
Pin me down, show me how
Lookin' back to find my way, never seemed so hard
Yesterday's been laid to rest, changing of the guard
I would never change a thing even if I could
All the songs we used to sing, everything was good
A little bit of resolve is what I need now
Pin me down, show me how
A little bit of resolve is what I need now
Pin me down, show me how
One more year that you're not here
It's gone and passed you by
What happened to you, what happened to you
One more tear that you won't hear
That's gone and passed you by
What happened to you, what happened to you
A little bit of resolve is what I need now
Pin me down, show me how
A little bit of resolve is what I need now
Pin me down, show me how
A little bit of resolve
One more year that you're not here
It's gone and passed you by
A little bit of resolve
One more year that you're not here
It's gone and passed you by
Resolve
by Kris
Father Father
I am yours today and every day
I give you my soul
my praise
my desire to live to the full
i will move on
each time
teh words
dry in my mouth
everytime
my eyes are knee deep in black water
i will move on
no exceptions
no free rides
all is sanctified
in Your name
I resolve
I resolve tonight
KEM
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
I cry when i ask my husband for help and he turns me down so quickly that i cannot begin to understand why.
i cry when my husband has his eye on the prize, but misses the view completely.
i cry when i am by myself, scared and alone and I realize that by choice this is where i am.
i cry when i want one thing, but do another, just to please someone who wants more then i can ever give.
i cry when my son is in anger, he feels alone and scared, and there is no man here to be his friend, mentor, and father figure.
i cry when i realize that i have made a mistake. i thought you were one person. instead, your another.
i cry when i have to say good bye. i have been crying for too long.
i cry when my husband has his eye on the prize, but misses the view completely.
i cry when i am by myself, scared and alone and I realize that by choice this is where i am.
i cry when i want one thing, but do another, just to please someone who wants more then i can ever give.
i cry when my son is in anger, he feels alone and scared, and there is no man here to be his friend, mentor, and father figure.
i cry when i realize that i have made a mistake. i thought you were one person. instead, your another.
i cry when i have to say good bye. i have been crying for too long.
Sunday, June 24, 2007
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
"I'd rahter die behind the wheel"
Yeah, what you say is what gets to God's ears.
My momma, Kathleen taught me that. What I know now, is not what i knew then. I went to see you because honestly, i do remember saying actually vowing that to you. I said, no matter where you go, I will find you. So, I did. And one thing that I know is, all I want from you, is for you to find me too. I did what I was supposed to do and in return, its your turn.
Every night that I sleep and I dream of you, I say to myself, I just wanna hear his voice. I recognize it in my ssoul. It's not fair. Yeah, that is right. It is not fair of me to love you when I love someone else, too. BUT. It is a fact and no matter how I try, or even dare to splain it to someone else, I cant stop thinking about or loving you. I just wanna hear your voice face to face. And if that is the spell put upon me and the suffering that I must endure, (ha ha) this is what I want from you, in return. Find me. No matter where I go, find me, talk to me, remember me, and love me. LOTS. Yeah, there still is a girly side of me. Love me lots.
My husband, Charlie does really love me LOTS. He is a good guy, too. And, I hope that you get to meet him and I hope that he is apart of our lives in every way humanly possible. Because, I do love him, the same way that I love you, too. He was and is quintessential in my, our life. He has tken good care of me. He is everything that a man should be for/to his wife. I love him for this and I always will.
BUT
and I do mean this so sincerely. He is not you.
Whose ass am I trying to kiss here? it is just the truth and nothing can change that. I am just trying to be honest here. Does all of this fall into the category, of way to much information that I just dont give a damn about?
That is what is best. I guess.
It is hard to love so many and be owned by one.
Notes from Forever by KEM
Yeah, what you say is what gets to God's ears.
My momma, Kathleen taught me that. What I know now, is not what i knew then. I went to see you because honestly, i do remember saying actually vowing that to you. I said, no matter where you go, I will find you. So, I did. And one thing that I know is, all I want from you, is for you to find me too. I did what I was supposed to do and in return, its your turn.
Every night that I sleep and I dream of you, I say to myself, I just wanna hear his voice. I recognize it in my ssoul. It's not fair. Yeah, that is right. It is not fair of me to love you when I love someone else, too. BUT. It is a fact and no matter how I try, or even dare to splain it to someone else, I cant stop thinking about or loving you. I just wanna hear your voice face to face. And if that is the spell put upon me and the suffering that I must endure, (ha ha) this is what I want from you, in return. Find me. No matter where I go, find me, talk to me, remember me, and love me. LOTS. Yeah, there still is a girly side of me. Love me lots.
My husband, Charlie does really love me LOTS. He is a good guy, too. And, I hope that you get to meet him and I hope that he is apart of our lives in every way humanly possible. Because, I do love him, the same way that I love you, too. He was and is quintessential in my, our life. He has tken good care of me. He is everything that a man should be for/to his wife. I love him for this and I always will.
BUT
and I do mean this so sincerely. He is not you.
Whose ass am I trying to kiss here? it is just the truth and nothing can change that. I am just trying to be honest here. Does all of this fall into the category, of way to much information that I just dont give a damn about?
That is what is best. I guess.
It is hard to love so many and be owned by one.
Notes from Forever by KEM
Thursday, June 14, 2007
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
im something
im nothing
im somewhere
in between
the reality
of silence
and the rapture
of me
can i get inside
the skin of self?
wisdoms belonging
to pain
and to nothing
and to no-one else
not knowing
the depths of death
the anger of pain
the stress of love
once again
twice in a row
just like that
the miracle occurs
in 3.5 seconds flat
owned by a heart
that beats too fast
lives in another world
cant get to
cant live in
cant share
just exists
somewhere
in the imagination
of lovers
we are defined
by the moment
Then life changes freely
...just like that
im nothing
im somewhere
in between
the reality
of silence
and the rapture
of me
can i get inside
the skin of self?
wisdoms belonging
to pain
and to nothing
and to no-one else
not knowing
the depths of death
the anger of pain
the stress of love
once again
twice in a row
just like that
the miracle occurs
in 3.5 seconds flat
owned by a heart
that beats too fast
lives in another world
cant get to
cant live in
cant share
just exists
somewhere
in the imagination
of lovers
we are defined
by the moment
Then life changes freely
...just like that
Sunday, April 15, 2007
Question: Where do you see yourself in five years?
Answer: I LIED.
Fact: I am unemployed and interviewing on a regular basis. I think that I have done well with the interview process. I am very tired of it and its not something that anyone enjoys. It really does have a selling of the soul kinda value to it. My soul and I are attached, happily so. Dont want it to go anywhere. I do not usually lie. People often hate asking me if I think if they have gained weight or Do I like their new boyfriend. I wont lie. I wont bullshit. But, while interviewing, lies come out of my mouth as if I were a teenage boy on the verge of getting laid.
I LIED. Sheot. (Before thinking about it and writing this post, )I'd probably do it again, too. Those lies came to me very naturally. I was surprised to hear myself say the words that came babbling out of my mouth.
BUT. I think that from now on, I dont want to lie myself or anyone else. Especially, when it comes to answering that type of question.
Where do I see myself in five years?
Answer: I LIED.
Fact: I am unemployed and interviewing on a regular basis. I think that I have done well with the interview process. I am very tired of it and its not something that anyone enjoys. It really does have a selling of the soul kinda value to it. My soul and I are attached, happily so. Dont want it to go anywhere. I do not usually lie. People often hate asking me if I think if they have gained weight or Do I like their new boyfriend. I wont lie. I wont bullshit. But, while interviewing, lies come out of my mouth as if I were a teenage boy on the verge of getting laid.
I LIED. Sheot. (Before thinking about it and writing this post, )I'd probably do it again, too. Those lies came to me very naturally. I was surprised to hear myself say the words that came babbling out of my mouth.
BUT. I think that from now on, I dont want to lie myself or anyone else. Especially, when it comes to answering that type of question.
Where do I see myself in five years?
this is funny and annoying at the same time...
This morning by KEM
I went to sleep early last night. I was tired by midnight. usually, i stay up much later. i curled up in my bed, turned the lights off, (which is a first since my sweet darling husband left town) and i went into sleepy land. around 4am, i awoke, drool pile on my pillow, i heard a sound. the fuggin cat was on the window sill, playing with the pully string for the blinds. oh my good god, i said. I sounded like janice joplin after a show and a bottle of jack. the sound of my voice scared the cat into submission. it only lasted long enough for me to fall asleep again. she moved across the room and started pulling my socks out of a semi opened drawer. she managed to pull out santa claus socks circa 1985, from god only knows where. I sat up in bed and yelled (this time) demonically at her. She stopped for about an hour. at545am, this morning, naked and dragging a cat outside into a spring morning rain, i opened the door and threw the cat outside. i laughed like a mad woman as i threw her. The phone was ringing, the alarm was going off loudly in my ear and i was happy. The cat was gone. All i had to do was turn the alarm off, answer the phone, and go back to bed. Oh and I had to pee.
Six hours later, I wake up to silence. Its golden, ya know?
love ya
Kris
This morning by KEM
I went to sleep early last night. I was tired by midnight. usually, i stay up much later. i curled up in my bed, turned the lights off, (which is a first since my sweet darling husband left town) and i went into sleepy land. around 4am, i awoke, drool pile on my pillow, i heard a sound. the fuggin cat was on the window sill, playing with the pully string for the blinds. oh my good god, i said. I sounded like janice joplin after a show and a bottle of jack. the sound of my voice scared the cat into submission. it only lasted long enough for me to fall asleep again. she moved across the room and started pulling my socks out of a semi opened drawer. she managed to pull out santa claus socks circa 1985, from god only knows where. I sat up in bed and yelled (this time) demonically at her. She stopped for about an hour. at545am, this morning, naked and dragging a cat outside into a spring morning rain, i opened the door and threw the cat outside. i laughed like a mad woman as i threw her. The phone was ringing, the alarm was going off loudly in my ear and i was happy. The cat was gone. All i had to do was turn the alarm off, answer the phone, and go back to bed. Oh and I had to pee.
Six hours later, I wake up to silence. Its golden, ya know?
love ya
Kris
Thursday, February 22, 2007
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
Father God: hear my prayer.
Thank you for all the belssings that you have given to me and my family. Thank you for Curt and Sebastian. They are the best that I could ever ask for. Thank you for my skills. I appreciate everything that you have bestowed upon me. Right now, I am in the middle of growing up. I do not know what my next step in life should be. All I really know is I am thankful for my family and my life. I want nothing more then to be a good mom, wife, sister, daughter, and artist. Please help me become all that you want me to be, living the life that you see fit for us. I need your direction father. I want to be successful. I want to be here for my family. Please open the doors of opportunity for me as you see fit. Thank you for blessing us. Please look after my mother, Sylvia Nana, and my sisters and brothers, too. I am listening and my heart is open to Your goodness. Thank you
Kris
Thank you for all the belssings that you have given to me and my family. Thank you for Curt and Sebastian. They are the best that I could ever ask for. Thank you for my skills. I appreciate everything that you have bestowed upon me. Right now, I am in the middle of growing up. I do not know what my next step in life should be. All I really know is I am thankful for my family and my life. I want nothing more then to be a good mom, wife, sister, daughter, and artist. Please help me become all that you want me to be, living the life that you see fit for us. I need your direction father. I want to be successful. I want to be here for my family. Please open the doors of opportunity for me as you see fit. Thank you for blessing us. Please look after my mother, Sylvia Nana, and my sisters and brothers, too. I am listening and my heart is open to Your goodness. Thank you
Kris
"I Let it Ride On. I Let it Ride On."
Subtle Hustle
on Blast Tyrant
by Clutch
My O My. If you haven't listened to this entire album from start to end, over and over again. You are missing out, my friends.
"I got your number
I steal your thunder
I got your mother's maiden name
tattooed on my arm"
Let it Ride On.
Let it Ride On
Followed by the immaculate song, Ghost.
I can not express the importance of this album. Listen to it. Love it. Absorb it.
Subtle Hustle
on Blast Tyrant
by Clutch
My O My. If you haven't listened to this entire album from start to end, over and over again. You are missing out, my friends.
"I got your number
I steal your thunder
I got your mother's maiden name
tattooed on my arm"
Let it Ride On.
Let it Ride On
Followed by the immaculate song, Ghost.
I can not express the importance of this album. Listen to it. Love it. Absorb it.
Sunday, January 28, 2007
I have mixed feelings. I am hung over like a tired, over worked, over stressed, mofo who had one margarita with dinner after four shots before getting on a plane. i am amazingly sober right now. but, i feel the pain baby. i dont have trouble flying usually. and i really mean it. i usually sit back, relax, and enjoy the g force. but, yesterday BWI and ORF were very empty and quiet. and I never felt so alone. i came to austin to be with Gus and Jennifer. we are going through a personal time and needed each other. i cannot emphasize the suck factor of life right now. and i sure as shit wont write about it, either.
When I separated from C at the airport, early and alone, part of me escaped into solitude. Another part of me worried myself into it. Part of me likes it here. By myself, I can hear the inner voice uninterrupted. But, by myself, I get into way too much trouble. For that I am sorry. For the journey and those that I met along the way, I am not and I have no regrets. Life is a beautiful time that can only be described as unwanted and totally received at the same time. I cant live with guilt, in a box, instead of fish, because I like cox. A connection, unallowed by the ring on my finger, but wanted by the soul is not wrong.
(for KC)
When I separated from C at the airport, early and alone, part of me escaped into solitude. Another part of me worried myself into it. Part of me likes it here. By myself, I can hear the inner voice uninterrupted. But, by myself, I get into way too much trouble. For that I am sorry. For the journey and those that I met along the way, I am not and I have no regrets. Life is a beautiful time that can only be described as unwanted and totally received at the same time. I cant live with guilt, in a box, instead of fish, because I like cox. A connection, unallowed by the ring on my finger, but wanted by the soul is not wrong.
(for KC)
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
If you started peeling back layers of darkness, underneath you would find a fresh lady of female geneus, a.k.a. a girl...
She isn't a girl
She isn't a feminist nightmare
remove the darkness
You will see
The brightness
Fresh reality
Blinding light
Inside of me/she
Image of the Father
Love(d) of the Mother
Glowingly Irish
If such a thing exists
Its what this day would wish
Release the darkness inside
Allow me to be
Me/She
04/27
She isn't a girl
She isn't a feminist nightmare
remove the darkness
You will see
The brightness
Fresh reality
Blinding light
Inside of me/she
Image of the Father
Love(d) of the Mother
Glowingly Irish
If such a thing exists
Its what this day would wish
Release the darkness inside
Allow me to be
Me/She
04/27
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