While
cleaning up my documents, preparing to begin writing a new story that
is called (working title) 50/50, I found some poetry from 2005 that I
am pretty sure is mine. I will not edit, since I am no longer that
person anymore.
Friday, April 15, 2005
Flawless
Ideal
love of the heart
Perfect
dreams in tact
Ultimate
sacrifice of time, self, and skill
Impeccable
Outcome
Not to
be denied
I want
to
Not be
denied
I want
to
Live in
the light
I want
to stop making the damned sacrifice
Losing
self
Losing
soul
So that
another selling can thrive
This
place to be
Day
after day
Does not
belong to me and mine
Sew what
you can
Earn
what the Earth provides
Is all
apart of an honorable design
Taken to
the day’s extreme
My soul
divides
Achievement
Between
the day and the night
I sing
to my child
Put him
comfortably into his bedroom
Read to
him
Talk
with him
Comfort
him
I would
always be within the tiniest of quests
Through
the living room, his little feet could wonder
Finding
me in my deepest slumber
Each
night before I slept
A
promise to myself, I forged
With pen
in hand
I opened
my mind, pointed to the path,
Letting
it proceed onto the pages
The only
fear I knew was in completion
Good
enough for me was my goal of perfectionism
Peace in
my heart with a good job done
It’s
the best that I can and always will accomplish
To be an
artist who is a good mother, is and always will be my most complete
wish.
Salvation!
Raise
hope beyond reason
Disregard
falicies of truth
Hold
your own place
In
this world of your own definition
Make
it a home for all to find comfort in
Today
tomorrow and the next day
Within
this calm
We
are alive
Hope
is our fuel
Art
is the food of our soul
Love
is our drive
In
this life time i am perfect
In
this place i am perfect
Seeing
myself through God's eyes.
Disclosure
If
i see the future and you are not with me
do
you want me to tell you the truth
do you want me to see you out the door
do you want me to see you out the door
smile
and wave good bye?
i
will see you again
this
i know to be true
with
every step that i take, in this life, i will think of you
in
the next life
i
will remember you then too
somehow,
we are all sisters
sharing
this moment
then
the next, one right after another
circle
of six, seven, eight, nine, ten
get
up and start all over again
this
dance was made in the heavens
the
gods were bored and in love
when
they made me and you and you and you
If
i see the future and you don't like it
will
you want me to tell the truth?
should I shut my mouth
when I close my eyes?
drift
away and say goodbye?
A
smile on my lips
is
like a moment on the hips
dancing
to the subtle truths of the heavens
not
created by you or I
dutifully
followed
in
the hopes of successing a dream
this
place
the
next
its
all the same to me
but
in your eyes
i
am perfect
and
that will always be the place where i want to be
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this
chime filled heaven
called
out my name
senorita
kristina
vien
con migo
come
with me
come
to me
be
apart of the everything that is nothing
but
exactly where you want to be
this
was my dream
this
is my reality
if
i followed your dream and made it mine
where
would i end?
would
i follow the same path to heaven
or
would i go there to find your heaven is in fact my desired place to
be?
if
i could have anything in this world
it
would be for you to want
what
is best and precise for me
me
me me
is
it all about you
trying
to justly treat
other
desires
of
our life
means
we can learn to dance the wrath of daily life
how
do i do this?
how
do i want for me, what other want for themselves?
how
can others want for them, want i want for myself?
this
is a direct conflict of realities
what
i want
what
i need
cannot
be everything to another human being
what
they want
what
they need
doesn't always fit into your own reality
how
can it fit into another's dreams of self?
we
see the pride
the prejudice
of
the sins of man before us
what
can we do
learn
and see our justice through
strength
and honor above all
strength
of self
honor
of family
which
one is more true?
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Family Forever sometimes means letting go when you do not want to?
How does that make any sense?
Are you saying that you would be happier not being a part of this family? The same family that put you first time and time again?
Raising children is not for the squeamish.
-Kris
Yours Truly, My Love
How does that make any sense?
Are you saying that you would be happier not being a part of this family? The same family that put you first time and time again?
Raising children is not for the squeamish.
-Kris
Yours Truly, My Love
